My Mother Trusts Me

Her eyes glitter again
No longer glistening
With poorly hidden tears
But she is not listening
To my screams

She smiles warmly at me again
Like now we have no secrets
Like now I am trustworthy
After all of those demons
I’m suddenly okay

She embraces me again
Her comforting presence I need
But she doesn’t know
That each day I still bleed
This feels fake.

She trusts me again
I am not constantly observed
This guilt is hell
But I refuse to serve
Her perfect image

She is so ignorant
Thinks I’ve learned a lesson
Silly childish thought that is
I can’t escape an addiction
So I cut

And once again
She does not see